Words of Innocence and Experience

My apologies to my readers (that is, if there are readers) who have to tolerate another lame beginning of a blog entry. I haven’t written here for more than three months. It appears that I’ve almost dropped the habit of writing altogether although I’ve always wanted to write.

Things have been turbulent during the past three months. I became active in hosting the movies festivals in NTHU. I made my first overseas trip this March and went to a number of conferences here in Taiwan to present my thesis. I grew close to a former student, but the relationship ended almost too abruptly. With the near completion of my thesis last week, now it’s time for me to begin the course of job hunting.

To this day, I’ve had several job interviews. However, I don’t think I presented myself well. Perhaps I haven’t warmed myself enough to the idea of being an employer in a company. My desire to be a scholar has been so strong that it clouded my senses.

Oh, dear, the song “Mistaken by Strangers” by the National affects me deeply. Is working really this horrendous?

The thing is, I’ve seldom been prepared for anything in my life. I mostly go with my instincts and intellect. Gradually I’ve realized that instincts and intellect do not always take me to where I want to be. In addition, I tend to act like a silent observer rather than an outspoken presenter in life, but this tendency is unappreciated in the job market. I must learn to speak no matter how much I hate to do so.

Should I take part-time jobs such as teaching and translating documents so that I could still concentrate on studying and thereby fulfill my wish to study abroad? That is a question. I reckon I’d still try working in a company, albeit temporarily.

Despite my confusion over a clear future direction, life has been good. I used as much time as I could to read, listen to music, and watch movies. I’d like to write about them in my Chinese blog.